EXPRESSION

Every time i feel like writting ....i wannna change my bloggers name ...coz i cant identify wid d previous one .......nyways today itz abt "expression " yeah so here i am 28 fucking years old searching for a groom and even in twenty fifteen i hav no freedom of expression .....one may write a thousand of pages on d deceptivity of d word freedom but datz not d point d point is .....i lack it ..........and who takes it away itz my  pride, honour ,and my  luved ones and d biggest one is me my ownself ...........now while i was growing i was always taught to b gud atleast pretend to b gud , and  dat is so deeply inculcated into my middle class mind dat i stop being true to people and den to myself .........and den i lost me ..... i met a guy letz say a dog (even now i was gonna use d backspace button thinking how wud people  react to wat i had written )who is non smart ,asshole ,chamdi but wid whom my parentz want me to b hooked up .....hmmm so dis young supposedly cool man wantz a sex toy for himself in d name of marriage ........people hav lost d sanctity and serenity of marriage ....am i too uncool to say dis ????????u never noe......... but in d name of moderniism where kids r unaware of demselves ....dey r fully aware of all d aphrodisiacs...........and yup i hav to maintain d decency of not saying d guy nything .....coz me too decent for it 

ILLUSION

Since childhood dey feed u d crap dat dere is a prince charming for each and every one of u .........and all thrive on it as if a singer on his vocal cord ....u put on d whole make up ....u learn all d stupid ways for ur survival and u keep on dreaming dat he wud turn up in bus,restraunts,bar,bus,college ,wedding,concerts  and where not ......u feel like hes watching u from somewhere ......u all always prepared for dat encounter.........itz like d invisible cameras all always on and u cant miss d most amazing .....miraculous moment of ur life .......and moments pass on so does months and years pass by ........and still u hold ur shit still ready for IT to happen ..........and few of u get ur IT moment ...few get and loose IT soon .....few compromise and say any moment as dere IT moment .....and many DONT get dere IT moment .............and d day cums wen dey stop searching and being ready for dat moment ........... and d cameras go offff for dem ....finally welcome to d illusion of reality .........